once again, a very long time since i've last written here. a lot things happened. but it was crazy through the months.
so basically, i hate math 141 again. i don't understand it and never will. i'm trying hard, but i just feel like i'm just stupid. i never went out with my friend that lead me on. basically, after that time we hanged out...he kissed me and ever since then he started to act weird. which was to difficult for me to take as he if wanted me or not. so i gave up with him. my best friend mentioned cousin was a little interested in me....so we befriended and got to know each other through this time where i was giving up on my friend. as i did, i got know her cousin more...we started to get along well. we started txting and then calling each other. then he asked me if i liked him, i said yea. then one day, i was running very late for class and i was txting him about it, and he was heading to school he asked if i wanted to meet up since we're both going to be at the same area for catching bus. so i agreed to meeting him. it was crazy. kinda funny cause the entire time...i was incredibly shy and slightly awkward feeling. but he tried to make feel better. so we both went to the movies and chilled a bit. we went to see madea goes to jail. as going to the theater, he held my hand and then pulled me up the escalator stair so i can be next to him. then while in the theater...he gave me a kiss. then he asked me out. of course, i agreed. so yea, that is how i got my boyfriend. cute story?

so things been pretty okay now. still rocky with college. i really am beginning to loathe that school. i love kickboxing and tennis, along with art. but the other classes i'm really loathing, especially math. i hate that class with passion. it's the subject i hate. all those things i've learned highschool all went to waste. cause they never taught to retain the subject for the next class. it's really sad. but i shall do better soon. :]
paalam.

well let's see here...i'm bored. what's new? nothing. i'm just wasting time typing here. but it's okay. i have nothing do except homework, which all students hate doing... well most students. i haven't met a student who loves doing homework and if they did... they're either very crazy or a stupid teacher's pet. well, before you all attack me for calling homework lovers crazy and stupid... let's just call those students "dedicated", REALLY dedicated. now isn't that better? euphenisms can make life easier and no one gets hurt, right? NO. they piss people off more. well for me, it pisses me off. because i read "between the lines". i usually know when i'm being insulted and 9 out of 10, i'm always correct. it's not my fault that i find these subliminal messages so easily, they're just not smart when it comes to insulting people. okay. that's hurtful. i don't want people to think i'm snob or have  some type of  "superiority" complex, because i don't. i just know when people are insulting me and it pisses me off when they think they're getting away with it because i don't say anything about it. they always mistaken my calm demeanor for stupidity. which is not so at all. i'm a very intelligient person and i like to question everything that pertains to right and wrong, human nature, politics, life, and anything else i can debate about. it's not intellectual, just fun to do. well, one thing i like is making others think, only because i like seeing people see things in a different perspective than what they usually think. but it's really in all we think or percieve. that's the question. it's the same question that philosophers incorporate when they use to question others. you can call it reverse psychology or anything you like, but it really makes you questioning things around you. i like the enlightenment era. one of my most favorite time other than world war II or the prohibition / great society. you can tell i loved history. i was the history whiz kid in class. but i was also the sports kid, guitar freak, and art misfit. i fitted in all the stereotypes. but i don't believe in that crap. i was the kid who glared you down if you dare label me. people knew me for being me. i didn't like labels. and my perfect example was using those labels, because they make you look close-minded and ignorant. so let's rephrase the above statements. i liked history a lot in high school. i also enjoyed sports along with guitar and art. those were my favorite interests in high school. they're also in college as well. i'm art and i love that class to death. i find it helpful. it makes hone in my skills that were weak when i was in art academy. i love my class for kickboxing. i'm able to practice all the martial arts i want and feel really good. now i don't have guitar, whih makes me sad a bit. since i love my guitar a lot, playing during high school in my senior year was an experience never to forget. i loved my recital. it was so much fun. but yeah. i like writing all this stuff from my brain because i relax. i get to vent all the negative crap inside me so when you see me, i'm always happy. okay, probably when you first see me i'm either pissed off looking or i'm lost in thought / spaced off. i mostly looked spaced off. haha.so yeah...i'm done writing for now... i'm tired, and i want to go chat to my friends online. paalam.

lei-lei <3

i'm not dead....yet.